Hello lovelies, as I write this my bags are packed and sitting beside the front door. In the morning I will be going to Tennessee to the Blissdom conference. I am scared to death--knees knocking, pit of the stomach belly ache scared. Leaving my family is not something I have ever done, they will be fine and well cared for but I will not be here and that bothers me, I love my life and do not want to miss any part of it. I am also very afraid of large groups of people that I don't know, the very idea makes me sick at my stomach. I have tried every way I can to back out of going, I even email to see if I could get my money back just a few days after I sent it--the answer is no by the way. Each time I have come up with something to worry about God has taken care of it, so even in this I am learning a lesson in trust.
Sunday while at church the pastor was talking about our God given gifts and how we all have different gifts and God has a purpose for each of them and will give us the ability to step out of our comfort zone to use them. Well one of my gifts is hospitality and I love it. I love to just love on people, but I have always looked at it as loving on the people I know. Well, God opened my eye to see that it just as much means loving on strangers. That got me to thinking that there will be other people at the conference who are just as frighten as I am and I can use my gift and with God's help I can get out of my comfort zone and love on them. I can not tell you what this did for my state of mind. Yes, I am still scared but I have a purpose bigger than myself now and someone greater than I providing the strength. It is amazing what happens when I take my mind off of me,me, me and put it on God and serving Him and others, suddenly my fear is not so big. So girls just know if you see me and I talk to you don't think I am just one of those really confident girls because I am not. One of those crazy girl---well yeah maybe.
If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To Him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen. 1 Peter 4:11
BTW, if you are going to be there let me know I would love to meet you.